Mindlessness!

       God damn what has happened in last few days but all I can dream now a days is failures. Failures seem to be a integral part of my life and are having a negative effect on my thinking. I guess, I have lost my mind to something and the worst part of it is that I am getting miserable cause of it.
       God gave Brains. The most evilest thing to do! That small thing has some super power which makes us ponder on unnecessary things, kills the valuable time and makes us lose the control of life. Thinking develops as we grow, and how I wish that we never grew.
       With the birth of my nephew I feel this because he's always smiling, laughing making all kinds of noises and is enjoying his life. Makes me feel why did I grow up. He has known no tensions, no wrinkles on his forehead and even manages to bring a smile on any face that see's him doing his acts of babyhood.
        Ever increasing age is increasing the problems too, coming from all directions making me do stunts like those in Matrix the movie bending, jumping ..... finally crawling and succumbing to these new worldly pressures.
         I believe that there is a parallel life for every soul, just want to know what it would have been if Mr. Adam had not eaten that apple!